Friday, December 31, 2010


I'm having a little trouble getting started with this one.... I have mixed feelings about 2010. It was such an up and down year for me and it's ending on a weird note for my family. I lost my boy this year and part of me wants to hold on to 2010, because it's the last year he saw. I don't know if that makes any sense at all.

I'm happy about my new life and I try to focus on the good stuff. I'm excited about Gavin's arrival and living here with John. I enjoy my job and soon Sarah's basketball season will be starting. I try to write about that stuff on Facebook - I want my focus to be on living a positive life. I have a lot to be grateful for, but one of my family members wrote something about how some people are pretending things are perfect or something like that and I suspect it was focused at me. My life isn't perfect. I don't pretend it's perfect. Who wants perfection?  Perfection is a scary thought to me - a sort of fate teaser. I just want to be happy and live I life I can feel proud of. 

All I can do is to keep working and taking care of my family to the best of my ability. 


Homemom3 said...

I can only imagine the excitement you are going through right now. Congratulations on the birth of your grandson. He's going to bring you so much happiness and memories. ;)

I don't think anyone's life is perfect but sometimes we only like to talk about the good and forget the bad. Who wants to blog the bad stuff anyways? I hope all is well with you and congrats on the washer and dryer I remember too many times doing our laundry by hand and that hurt lol.

Askew To You said...

I think that's when I have trouble writing - I don't want to talk about the bad stuff or I don't want to focus on it. I have so many great things going on right now, but money stuff is eating away at me and that sucks.

I am really looking forward to holding Gavin this weekend!!